Dancing in the Street

Okay so at the beginning when everyone was so uber excited to do this…i was like cool this is fun, but i wasn’t very intense about this scavenger hunt.  I mean we’re going around asking teachers questions like “do you have heart?” while the lower grades and people who aren’t in hon eng are like wtf?   So yea i wasn’t so excited to start

But then i got caught up in the madness…really wanting to find out who had the qualities that i wanted.  But i didn’t end up finding them all..and i’m not oging to try to find the rest of them because i realized that i only wanted some of them anyway.

Then i read the STEP 1 that i had just skipped over: What are my strengths? How do they serve you on your journey? …. yada yada yada. anyway i don’t really think about my strengths that much. Sure i realize that i have some but i don’t really take the time to consider them or am too focused on the negative aspects of me.  So positive stuff….i’m loyal, i’m rarely mean, i am a good procrasinator (usually getting the stuff done, some of the time on time), i can laugh at myself, i can get ready in the morning in under ten min (which is why my hair is so nappy), i’m okay at soccer, i’m involved in some activities, i’m been unusually good with the fam (not getting into any verbal wars recently), and i can’t think of anymore.

so onto my journey. right now i don’t really know where my journey is going to or even if i’ve really started it…right now it kinda feels like i’m coasting or like my journey has had an intermission or a pit stop like deal, where i’m not really moving forward. maybe moving backward a little.  But relating that to the Medicine wheel…yea i don’t think i’m even on the wheel yet. maybe sirta ub tge West because this involves looking inward and reflection and everything but yea i haven’t reached any illumination or anything. Maybe some trust and innocence (the south) because yea mayb i trust people too much or too little sometimes..if that makes any sense at all.  The starting place which is suposed to be given to us at birth…and the most easy and most natural way throughout our lives … yea i don’t know which one is my starthing place. Definitely not wisdom. or Illumination. or Look’s within place. maybe trust and innocence because i guess i perceive my nature sorta well. 

So onto the medicines! yay! these are the ones that i found/the ones that i think i need:

courage- well, i’m not the most outgoing person in the world…so i could use a little courage overall…to do some stuff that i want/would want to do if i weren’t so scared to do so

Joy- who wouldn’t want more joy/happiness in their life? i mean i’m generally a happy person but in the mornings….yea its not a fun time. which i could probably try a little harder but its the frickin morning and i’m tired and i don’t wanna get up and boo hiss 

Faith- i realize that faith doesn’t necessarily correlate to religion, but honestly i could probably have more of a religious aspect in my life

Patience- i am overly impatience and thus making it seem like i have no attention span….which i actually can pay attention if its a subject i find interesting but if not i just kinda flow with it…but anyway to me patience is one of the core things that i need because i would be able to participate in more things and actually be able to complete certain tasks that are allusive because of my impatience.

Perserverance- sometimes i don’t really finish the things that i start so some perserverance might actually be beneficial …..

Wisdom- i’m not going to lie….i’m not that wise. i could use some good common sense or some wisdom in the ways of the world or something like that

Strengh-arrrrrr need more strength….wow i’m tired

Humility- i’m not overly braggy…but humility is good to have in everyone’s life

Integrity- no more little white lies

Insight- to myself…and in life in general

so basically…i think like everyone who has the chance to should go on kairos…and be open-minded…

and thats all i’m going to say bout that

so……little sib’s weekend this weekend!!!! woo hoo at depauw…..i’m excited should b fun

bands worth mentioning: rooney, green day, the eagles, hoobastank, the hoosiers, ABBA, rehab
took the interstate to school today. i got here in like fifteen minutes….which is basicaly futting my time in half. yes i was driving probably too fast…but no tardies for me.

position paper=booooooooooooooooooo hisssssssssssssss

so i’ve realized i’ve been complaining on here alot and i would like to change that.

so here are   things that make me happy

1. those good store-bought cookies w/ the really good icing

2. holidays

3. the fam

4. the amigos

5. my….car

6. music!

7. shoes

8. smiling

9. eating ice cream in the cold

10. having someone else paint your nails

11. playing a really funny prank

12. corny knee slapper like jokes

13. snow

14. flowers

15. fruit

16. random-ness

17. dancing crazy

18. everything eagle creek

19. sweatpants

20. birthdays (celebrated a fewe of them this week   )

21. stupid movies

22. disney movies

23. kh’s reaction to scary movies

24. when you try to think of something and you just can’t get it

25. awkward moments to laugh about

so ending on twenty 5 like the fb thing wasn’t intentional…i just got tired

i love skiing. i love sliding down mountains. i like going fast and down difficult slopes. we used to go every year

SO WHY ARE BOTH MY PARENTS GOING ON SEPARATE SKI TRIPS AND NOT TAKING ME?????  

this isi what i don’t understand. and i might seem a little whiney but gosh darniti really want to go skiing….i think i’m going maybe on that pres 4 day weekend… but that’s like indy skiing which doesn’t really count. like you go up to the top of the ‘mountain’ and there’s a farm. and a house. just chillin up there.

and they aren’t even going together…my mom is going with friends and my dad is going with my uncles. well my dad is going in Canada where you get driven/pulled up an uncharted mountain and you have to get down. he says its like five feet of straight powder. one of my uncles was just heliskiing where they drop you out of a helicopter and you just bad-ass it down. 

my mom is going to Beaver Creek, which i have not been to. but i’m guessing its pretty darn good bcuz i kno a lot of ppl who have like condos or just go there alll the time. soboo hiss

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i also don’t get physics all that well either. random and unrelated but…yea

i popped my balloon today. i threw it at a tree.

not sure what that means

ok so i am being on the ball and writing my post-for-the-week before the last minuteness and everything. hopefully a post won’t be assigned and making this worth nothing. but htast being negative. so anyway yesterday i was sick…as in hugging the toliet kind of sick….i won’t go into th edetails but it wasn’t fun. so basically i didn’t have anything to eat yesterday. and i haven’t really had anything to eat today, but thats ok. i have a feeling if i ate anything it would come back up anyway. so i have my handy dandy water bottle that is supposedly calming my stomach (i agree 7 up or sprite would be better but i shouldn’t be having any carbonated drinks because of soccer….  … ). which is fine.

i would just like to say I CLEANED OUT MY LOCKER!!! its been months since that thing has been cleared out and it kinda needed it. i had trix still in there from….i don’t kno when. it was kinda nasty. anyway that made me happy.

i love the randomness

i would just like to say the snow + the late entrance was AMAZING!!!! i plan on going sledding this weekend! hopefully it’ll be just a little warmer. its kinda cold right now…too cold for any actual fun in the snow…unless i go all out with the snow gear and everything. 

pics of amazing snow stuff:

snow = amazing. love it

bands/singers that i officially like:

john lennon

neil diamond

jackson browne

kate voegele

foo fighters

hoobastank

the offspring

puddle of mud

newton faulkner

vampire weekend

low millions

red hot chili peppers

brett dennen

maroon five

matchbox twenty

eminem

pink floyd

the doors

the who

the beatles (across the universe is a great movie….still like the originals better tho)

aerosmith

bruce springsteen

lindsay buckingham (fleetwood mac too)

john mellencamp

bob dylan

plain white tees

taylor swift

brad paisley

and others that i can’t think of rite now

note: and these are the music i like rite now that i like more than one song by them for instance pink is not on the list but i like her ‘so what’ song

okay so basically i left my sheet at school….being a genius that i am and i don’t really know what number is each question so this is going to be like a huge conglomeration (which i actually spelled right the first time- a record to be noted) of the questions. So here goes:

i DO think that i’m called to do something more. i can feel it when i listen to a great song or experience something that’s just amazing and you really can’t describe the feeling that goes along with something like that. or if you can you are just amazing with words and i admire you. anyway, i haven’t realized exactly what my call is or what exactly i want to do with my life or basically the ‘huge’ questions. 

the thought of me being a hero is kinda wierd for me. i would see me sitting in the backseat helping a hero.  But thats the stereotypical kind of hero.  the hero that goes on the hero journey i can see me going on maybe later in life….i don’t think i’m mature enough to go on it…..i dunno the journey seems very intense and i just don’t really think i’m ready for it yet….so maybe i’m stuck in the world for now. at least i know that theres probably something beyond the world that i’m living in right now.

i am always up for adventure or doing something crazy. just not stupid-crazy. i love doing new things and trying different activities that i haven’t done before.  but i dunno sometimes its as if something is holding me back for something. like a subconscious kind of thing. i don’t know really.  Previous adventures usually included going out of my comfort zone, which im kinda slow to do. at least i think i am

i don;t really know if i want to be called…i mean i am afraid of the unknown so i don’t know what would happen if i actually found out what my call is. i mean i haven’t popped my balloon yet. like i said before i just don’t think i’m ready or mature or able to be called yet. i just sorta feel inadquate as of now so…. yea

i think being called means you have a true purpose…you have a clear idea or somewhat clear idea of what you are supposed to accomplish…or what you are supposed to not accomplish. if that makes any sense at all.

like i said i haven’t popped my balloon yet…i hope that sometime i’ll be able to…maybe soon 

i was listening to low millions while i was doing this…if anyone doesn’t know them they should check them out. they’re good

okay so today i didn’t really like getting up that early, but besides that i think that they day went……averagely. i made a new years resolution to not slack off and i’m going to stick to that. i kinda want to be positive and everything, not put such a AHHHHHHHHH I’M SO SCREWED twist on everything. which i don’t but theres that little voice in your head (the not crazy hearing voices kind).

so basically i’m sorta ready for school to get going again. i mean i’ll miss break (like everyone does i mean really) but i wasn’t really doing anything productive which is amazing but sometimes you just get tired of doing nothing. it kinda feels good to be overly involved with everything again.